A Collection of Words, Gathering Thoughts

I don’t know where this post will go? I am writing with a migraine. My head is telling me to rest, to get away from the screen. However it is raining outside, no one is around and I had a full and emotional weekend and feel that I want to just get some words out. I have ideas of what those words might cover and those ideas are all vying for my attention so I don’t think any one subject will arise front and center, and some will probably not even make an appearance here. It’s almost as though I have to get the mess out before anything else can make its presence felt.

The weekend was full as I said. On the Thursday before I learnt of the sudden and unexpected death of a dear friend and mentor. Sunday was a gathering of friends and family to celebrate his life - the rain poured outside, the love gathered inside, and then a rainbow appeared in the field below the house. I saw friends who I have not seen for a long time. Much had changed and much had simply stayed the same. We caught up and carried on as before.

That evening my wife wanted to go and see the movie Nuremburg. I was not really in the mood for it, my mind dwelling on the morning before, the emotion, the loss, the reacquaintance. I enjoyed the film, a powerful performance by Russel Crowe, it had me thinking…and I felt as thought something was missing.

The day before, Saturday, had been my grandson’s birthday party which seemed to take up most of the day what with preparation and then it happening. In the evening there was dinner at a friend’s house.

By the end of the weekend, the introvert and HSP in me was exhausted by the end of all of this and just wanted to get away and be quiet. The gatherings had my analyzing mind working overtime, adding to the tiredness.

On Monday, although this happened at a distance and I have not seen him in many, many years, I was aware of the passing of a cousin due to cancer, taken at too young an age.

Maybe that is why I am sitting with a migraine now?

Yes, some subjects did not get a look in…maybe another time?

Now to lie down and rest.